Why the hell am I such a fuck up!!

Pics of said lady.....

 

she left you 6x in 14 months and blocked you twice! Sounds like she’s been having a hard time trying to get rid of you bud.
You need to move on.

 

Leave her, go on with your life, you're way too young, she's toxic

 

Dude - If she isn't making your truck payment or funding your Tundra mod addiction why are you still there? Its done. Its over. Its time to move on to the next chapter in your life. Trust me you have MANY more chapters ahead of you.

 

It’s hard for me to love someone and

she’s the one who keeps contacting me after I did move on but if she calls me I’m like a lost puppy and always come back to her because I have invested in her with my heart. I didn’t stay up 4 in the morning with her for no reason, I didn’t just call of work for no reason, I didn’t stick around for no reason, and a couple months ago when she said we should literally move in together but first we need to marry I told her yes with no hesitation but now what. She even told me to stop bitching about the time because it was getting late as always with us but I still stick with her through thick and thin.

 

But, dat azz...

He be doin' it, and doin' it, and doin' it well. He gets down to it; puts his back into it.

 

Bud you need to seek help before it’s too late.

 

I think that’s to late. I actually almost killed myself the 2nd time she broke up with me. I almost jumped a bridge and 3k down the drain for tryingi to Kill myself because the cops took me in to a hospital. Next time I would have to find another place with no one around.

it’s not like I have problem finding chicks but I want more then a play around thing. I’m average looking I guess.

 

This isn’t love, dude…sorry to break it to you. This is manipulation, you are being played like a fiddle. You can even see it yourself, saying you go back to her like a puppy. You haven’t moved on, if you had, her repeated calls to come back to her wouldn’t pull at you like they do. She knows she can do whatever she wants and you’ll still be there whenever she decides you’re what she wants. Till then, you’re like a decoration on a shelf.

 

^^This^^

 

I thought when they with age comes wisdom that that was true but I guess not.

I had so much hope with her in the future that she even knows my ssn and everything and I don’t share that with anyone.

 

If someone younger was doing this to you I’d chalk it up to immaturity.

For someone her age, someone acting like this makes it seem like she’s playing mind games with someone she knows is less experienced [in life] than her.

Even if her intentions are pure, she has some personal demons she needs to address before getting into a serious relationship. I recommend psilocybin. Felt like I had more emotional growth in a year than I did my whole life — and it worked wonders for my road rage too.

 

What does your family think of her? Your closest friends?

 

They say she’s no good for you etc… but when you’re in love with someone you will defend them no matter what.

 

Was going to reply the same thing. Women hate a simp, they say they don't, but they do.

OP, she is doing you a favor. She is showing you who she really is, don't excuse it away.

 

Kill yourself?!?!?? FUCK NO! Leave her now!

 

Don’t kill yourself ! Believe me when I say that you’ll absolutely devastate your parents and any siblings you have .
My oldest son passed away on August 25th of this year ( not suicide ) he was 26 . It damned near killed us .

 

But why would she mention that to actually move in together we would need to get married. I have slept at her house etc… but for her to tell me that we need to get married to actually stay in the same house as a married couple got my hopes up even more.

 

Because she is manipulating you my dude. Seriously eff her. Move on. She is obviously a toxic person. It sounds like your closest friends and family agree, listen to them.

 

I strenuously recommend one last grudge f***, wipe yourself dry using the drapes, throw $10 on the nightstand, and strut out the front door like Rick James.

 

If she’s blocked you already, this is your chance to break free. Block her back, or even just get a new number. You have to get off this merry go round, for your sanity, your health, even your life.

 

seriously bro, you have to admit yourself for intervention. You are at high risk for committing suicide. Do you have access to a gun?

 

Bro, just sit tight we can help. I could help you find someone to talk to. Just let me know.

 

This smells like some kind of fraternity prank.

 

I have also wondered if we are being taken for a ride, not unlike the one OP appears to be on with this woman…hard to tell, though

 

https://youtu.be/deaVr8ML0BI

 

@hagrid is the only one making sense in all this

 

Not the first time that has happened

 

Well... this is a topic I never expected to see around here.

But man you gotta understand your worth, yes theres billions of us humans, but if you can live your life without hurting others and being a good son, then you're already worthy of the life given, throwing it away is a crime against those who love you.
Loneliness sucks, it leads to many cascading mental health issues so I urge you to seek help, doesn't need to be a pro, a friend or family member that just listens to you can make a big impact.

This would be baller

 

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